I have been off my track again, this time it was something I thought I was immune to. It is quite an irony, to think one to be invincible and immune, when all you really are is vulnerable. Then again, presumptions can really be a burden to bear, and life is so much easier without it, honestly. It brings along expectations, grows into tension, and when it overwhelms the heart, everything just spills, and back to square one.
I have to realise that now is not the time. No question about it, but the change it brought along in this short lapse of time is terrifying me. I shudder to think what will follow up, and whether it will break or make me. No matter how vehemently I try to deny, it changes things, subjective ones, and that can be a real nightmare if its progress is not halted in the nick of time.
Live to serve another day dude. Or maybe die another day.
2 comments:
I assume the "it" you're talking about is that of an emotional stance? The L word that plagues this post and your previous entry, lol.
Certain things can't be curbed. It's just a matter of learning to grow with it without succumbing to one's fears, or more likely, one's self. Then again, we choose the routes we wish to walk.
You're most probably offline, but all the best for the remaining papers =)
spine: yea. think abt the papers 1st. haha.
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